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"I have love for you, you're just not my one."
A line I'm all too familiar with.
I thought he meant it.
Turns out, I'm just not convenient.
Not skinny enough.
Not trashy enough.
He's got me practically sprinting to someone else.
Someone clean me up.
Someone sober me up.
Someone set me straight.
How do I let myself fall for this?
How can I be so stupid?
I'm good at being blinded by lust.
And even better at being blinded by "love".
I just wanted something safe,
Something stable.
Is that too much to ask for?
As I fall, I feel familiar arms,
See familiar faces.
It's as if they knew I'd be broken,
And could see it from a mile away.
I just want out.
I just want it all to be over..
I don't ever want to see him again.
I don't ever want to hear another lie come out of his filthy mouth.
I don't ever want to feel his touch again.
I just want to erase him from my memory,
And let the ashes burn in Hell.