Untouchable

I look into your eyes..

I can see you falling.

It's clear you've not realized what you've gotten yourself into.

My walls are so high they're practically unclimbable.

I can't make myself vulnerable..

 You might think I'm an angel,

But someone else ripped off my wings.

So many emotions flooding through me

Unable to tell the difference between what's real and what isn't..

I want to go forward, 

But feel like I'm stumbling backwards.

I make myself untouchable,

So you can't bring me down.

I can't let love get to me,

In fear that it might break me.

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I used to think that I could never be happy.
That love stories, chick flicks and fairy tales were all bull and sappy.
The moment I started falling, I wanted to escape.
Too scared to give in and make my parents mistakes.
I was about to say fuck love.
You took me by the hand and helped me understand,
Good things come to those who wait.
I was so lonely for so long.
My once warm heart, had started to go cold.
Right before the last piece went to ice,
I looked into your eyes.
I've never been so sure of anything in my entire life.
Still getting butterflies.
Hoping you never change your mind.

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"I have love for you, you're just not my one."
A line I'm all too familiar with.
I thought he meant it.
Turns out, I'm just not convenient.
Not skinny enough.
Not trashy enough.
He's got me practically sprinting to someone else.
Someone clean me up.
Someone sober me up.
Someone set me straight.
How do I let myself fall for this?
How can I be so stupid?
I'm good at being blinded by lust.
And even better at being blinded by "love".
I just wanted something safe,
Something stable.
Is that too much to ask for?
As I fall, I feel familiar arms,
See familiar faces.
It's as if they knew I'd be broken,
And could see it from a mile away.
I just want out.
I just want it all to be over..
I don't ever want to see him again.
I don't ever want to hear another lie come out of his filthy mouth.
I don't ever want to feel his touch again.
I just want to erase him from my memory,
And let the ashes burn in Hell.

Crash

You were all lost..
I was falling way too fast.
I'll always remember the day that we crashed.
The flames burned real high.
I wanted to kiss you, but didn't..
Our eyes connected..
It was then that we knew.
Eventually one of us would bid the other adieu.
I was screwed from the start.
I shouldn't have given you my heart.
But now that you have it..
It doesn't even matter.
You gave yourself away to another..
What's in between her legs made your mind stutter.
You got lost and crashed again..
But this time it's gonna be a slow burn.
If you come back I don't know which way I'll turn..
I'm broken just like you.
Your lies got me back to the way I was before..
All because you had to fuck a stupid little whore.
You crashed...and took me down with you.
The wreckage cut me open.
Giving me new scars to be placed above the old ones..
I didn't deserve to be dragged into this..
I'll always remember our last kiss.
The way you were is how I remember you in my heart..
I would have never even let this start..
If I knew it would end in such cruelty.

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Looking in your eyes..
I can see that you love me..
I close my eyes
All I can see
Is you..looking back at me.
Everytime you hold me..
I can feel how much you love me.
When I'm laying alone..
I feel empty.
When you're around me..
I no longer feel anything holding me back.
I'm free to be myself.
I no longer cry glass tears.
I no longer have as many fears.

As long as I have you..
I'm safe.
As long as I have you..
I'm fearless.
As long as I have you..
I'm ok.

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Running...far far away.
This love I feel is too strong for me to handle.
Am I holding you back?
I just want to stay close to you..
Am I breaking your heart?
I just want to be here for you..
The kisses you give me
Melt away my heart of ice..
The twinkle in your eyes
Dries up my blood stained soul.

I'm trying to protect myself..
Heartbreak is inevitable..
You make me feel safe.
I wanna be with you..

I don't wanna sound selfish..
I just want your flesh..
I long for every aspect of your love..
My head is full of questions.
My heart is full of answers.

My mind asks if I lust you..
My heart says...

I love you.

Shattered

I crawl away slowly as I watch the tears fall from your face..
I wonder if this entire time I made a huge mistake.
My puffy eyes and red face tell a story...
Of how love was found in all of its glory.
My heart is beating twice the speed of sound.
I feel myself crashing into the ground..
The impact is so unbearable...