I've Learned To Hate Love.

Please don't tell me you want me..
For I may take it the wrong way.
I know you mean lust..
When all I need is love.

I know I bring this upon myself..
But is it too much to ask for one chance?
Just one spark to light the fire..

I'm so desperate to feel anything..
That I'm willing to put myself through hell
To make sure I still have a heart that beats.
A night full of pleasure that always seems to end..
With a heart full of pain.

I run to you..
Knowing I should turn away.
Call out your name..
Knowing you'll never respond.
So why do I even bother?
Why even try?

I've locked my heart away..
To where no one will find it.
Because when I break it out..
It's only going to be cut open, once again.

Lust has taught me to hate love..
My heart is grieving..
My body is rejoicing.

I'm torn, looking at these things I've done.
All their lies..
Are worth believing..
Just for one taste of what I desire most.