I Psych Myself Out

I still have this feeling in my heart.
That you'll come back to me..
I psych myself out..
I hide myself behind a mask of happiness and laughter..
Only to come home at night to feel the emptiness beside me..
I try to keep myself busy..
But everything reminds me of you..

You totally fucked up my heart and soul..
I thought you were the one that would make me whole..
Remembering all those sweet words you'd say..
Makes me wonder if they were all lies..
That caused me to fall into this disguise.

I can barely trust anyone anymore..
I wonder if I'm worth it to anyone at all..
I want to let you  go...
But you've got this hold on me that won't let me .
They say time heals all wounds..
But they never said anything about the scars..

So once again I put up these walls..

Waiting for you to come back..

But I've got to psych myself out..

Because I know it's a lie.