I'm Coming Undone.

I'm tired of unrealistic infatuations..
Incredibly painful situations..
I wear my heart in a locket on my sleeve.
Only to see people leave, once again.

I can only do so much to put myself out there..
I can only go so far out of my comfort zone.

I'm satisfied with what I have..
I just know there's more that I want,
That I'll always want to go after.

But instead, I wait.
I wait for him, whoever he may be.

My mind is ripping itself apart on a constant basis..
Trying to rid itself of any memory that can turn around and hurt me.
Instead, as I draw closer to someone else...
It rears its ugly head.
As if to tell me, I'll never have anything like I did when I was with you.
I'm slowly coming undone.

On the surface, you see sunshine.
But deep below it, I see rain.
The harder I pull away, the worse the storm gets.
Slowly swallowing me..
Torturing me with lies.

All I need is that one strand of light..
To show me I'm going the right way.
I'd do anything to get that again..
I'd do anything to get your memory to stop hovering over me..

Love, please save me.
Help me regain what's rightfully mine.
Give me the strength to fight through this.
The sanity to know I can move forward..
Without going backward in the process.