I'm Sorry

 I’m sorry.
Sorry I’ve grown up.
Sorry I’ve gotten smarter, and that I’ve managed to crawl away from home.
It’s hard to let myself open up now..
Life has been hard.
But I’m making it through...without your assistance.
For that, I’m sorry.
I hate that I can’t talk to you like I used to..
But that’s just life.
I know you can’t understand who I am now..
And that’s ok.
You’re still there..and I’m still here, 3,000 miles away.
A small part of me still hurts..and I know as I get older it will fade.
I still love you.
I just hide everything with a smile, and go about my day.
Live my life as if I may die any second.
I hate that I’m angry for no reason sometimes..
I hate that sometimes I take things out on you..
But every action is taken with a consequence.
I forgive, but never forget.
I blame myself for everything sometimes.
Knowing that it can’t be taken back.
I know you don’t understand..and probably never will.
I try not to keep my distance, but I can’t help myself.
I’m sorry.